December 17th, 2001

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I'm kinda better now.

I have no money, but still the burning rage to kill everything seems to have disapated somewhat.

The conclusion: Leave home asap, go somewhere, anywhere.

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When I was a little girl, I asked my mother "What will I be? Will I be famous? Will I be rich?" here's what she said to me;

Ce Sarah, Sarah.

What ever we'll be will be.

The future's not ours to see.

Ce Sarah, Sarah.
Some folks ask, "What's my destiny, why am I here, what's my purpose in life?" maybe we should be asking do we really want to know and would we like the answer that we get.
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So, Longest weekend EVER.

And not in a good way.

Friday/Saturday I was babysitting, unfortunatly it was 0530 until the parents got back (I fell asleep around 0430...) and um then there was allllll of Saturday.

Some furry folks had a great time in Edigburgh having a christmas meal. I was in Aberdeen stuck in traffic learning to drive.

Then on Saturday/Sunday I had some folks over finishing a V:TES grudge match (ended about 0330 ish) and as I could not sleep I spent until 0630 colouring some stuff.

Sunday was thus a stressy bad day.

Thank goodness it's quiet today and I don't have to do much.


Anywho, enogth complaining. Let's get jiggy.
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Beth is going to phone me tonight, and i'll tell her the truth.

I can't love her, I can't be with her, I am the biggest shit in the universe blah blah blah.

It's been done before, you know the rest.
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I'm falling apart now.

On one side i've got my parents constantly bickering and bitching at me about tiny little things that don't matter.

On the other side i've got Beth who i'm going to have to tell the truth, and that's going to hurt her.



I've also got to catch up with around 9 hours of missed sleep at some time as well.
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A song

Because I don't know any other way to say the things I need to say.

Tell me it's not true.
Tell me, i'm just dreaming.
The world so far away,
It's just an illusion.

Tell me it's not true.
Tell me, i'm believing.
A lie, a falsehood,
An untruth.
I won't believe what i'm hearing.

Tell me, i've been wrong.
Tell me, it's not happening.
Make it go away,
Take the world away,
Just one more day.

Then i'll be ready.
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Once more into the breach I go, once more into the depths of hell.

Will I be dammend or can I redeem?

Only time will tell.
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